Friday, December 30, 2022

Don's Blog Winter Night 12-30-22

Here is a poem from another retired physician. Happy New Year.

Winter Night
  In the evening, after   a snowfall, look out     onto a field or forest;   calm, untouched, and white.     Listen to the stillness.   This is the best time     to find solace. Look   at the stars, the waning     moon. Let snow silence   fill your head. Winter     is the quiet time,   the slowed-down time,     the time for drifting  to that hidden place within.    
Frederic Hildebrand  2022  
If you wish let me know where in these chaotic times you are able to find The Silence.                    

Wednesday, December 28, 2022

Don's Blog "Looking Good" 12-27-22

Here is my editorial from St Louis Metropolitan Medicine from October, 1984.





Monday, December 26, 2022

Don's Blog 'Sometimes' 12-26-22

 Well the day after Christmas is a good one for a little optimism.             

          'Sometimes'


Sometimes things don't go, after all,
from bad to worse. Some years, muscadel
faces down frost; green thrives; the crops don't fail.
Sometimes a man aims high, and all goes well.

A people sometimes will step back from war,
elect an honest man, decide they care
enough, that they can't leave some stranger poor.
Some men become what they were born for.

Sometimes our best intentions do not go
amiss; sometimes we do as we meant to.
The sun will sometimes melt a field of sorrow
that seemed hard frozen; may it happen for you.

Sheenah Pugh

Friday, December 23, 2022

Don's Blog "Adrift" 12-23-22

I have just finished a course in "Gratitude and Awe". This poem surfaced and I have sent it to
friends experiencing the grief process. Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday to you all.

ADRIFT

Everything is beautiful
and I am so sad.
This is how the heart makes a duet of
wonder and grief.

The light spraying
through the lace of the fern
is as delicate
as the fibers of memory forming their web
around the knot in my throat.

The breeze makes the birds move
from branch to branch
as this ache makes me look for those I've lost
in the next room,
in the next song,
in the laugh of the next stranger.

In the very center, under
it all, what we have
that no one can take
away and all that we've lost
face each other.
It is there that I'm adrift,
feeling punctured
by a holiness that exists
inside everything.
I am so sad and everything is beautiful.

—Mark Nepo

Wednesday, December 21, 2022

Don's Blog Getting On It and Getting Off It 12-21-22

Here is my Editorial in the journal St Louis Metropolitan Medicine from June 1984.

 

Monday, December 19, 2022

Don's Bog "What if This Road"

Here is a poem about by Sheenagh Pugh



What If This Road 

What if this road, that has held no surprises
these many years, decided not to go
home after all; what if it could turn
left or right with no more ado
than a kite-tail? What if its tarry skin
were like a long, supple bolt of cloth,
that is shaken and rolled out, and takes
a new shape from the contours beneath?
And if it chose to lay itself down
in a new way; around a blind corner,
across hills you must climb without knowing
what's on the other side; who would not hanker to be going, at all risks? Who wants to know
a story's end, or where a road will go?

Sheenagh Pugh 2003

from What If This Road and Other Poems


Friday, December 16, 2022

Fwd: Don's Blog Via Negativa 12-16-22



Here is another poem by RS Thomas

          Via Negativa

Why no! I never thought other than
That God is that great absence 
In our lives, the empty silence
Within, the place where we go
Seeking, not in hope to '
Arrive or find.  He keeps the interstices
In our knowledge, the darkness
Between stars.  His are the echoes
We follow, the footprints he has just
Left.  We put our hands in 
His Side hoping to find
It warm. We look at people
And places as though he had looked
At them, too: but miss the reflection.  

 R.S. Thomas, Later Poems 

Its this the  distinction between the wave and the imprint of the
 wave on the sand after it has receded


Don's Blog 'Disappearing' 12-14-22

Here is an editorial from the journal St Louis Metropolitan Medicine from May of 1984.

Wednesday, December 14, 2022

Don's Blog 'Disappearing' 12-14-22

Here is an editorial from the journal St Louis Metropolitan Medicine from May of 1984.




Monday, December 12, 2022

Don's Blog Poetry for Supper 12-12-22


Here is a poem by RS Thomas, who was a leading Welsh poet and Anglican priest.

He is of interest to me as my mother was Welsh and was also a Thomas. 

Poetry for Supper

'Listen, now, verse should be as natural
As the small tuber that feeds on muck

And grows slowly from obtuse soil

To the white flower of immortal beauty.'

'Natural, hell! What was it Chaucer

Said once about the long toil

That goes like blood to the poem's making?

Leave it to nature and the verse sprawls,

Limp as bindweed, if it break at all

Life's iron crust. Man, you must sweat

And rhyme your guts taut, if you'd build
Your verse a ladder.'





'You speak as though
No sunlight ever surprised the mind
Groping on its cloudy path.'

'Sunlight's a thing that needs a window

Before it enter a dark room.

Windows don't happen.'






So two old poets,

Hunched at their beer in the low haze

Of an inn parlour, while the talk ran
Noisily by them, glib with prose.


RS Thomas

Friday, December 9, 2022

Don's Blog 'Yard Work' 12-7-22

Here is another poem by Charles Wright, a former Poet Laureate from rural Tennessee.

       Yard Work

I think that someone will remember us in another time,
Sappho once said—more or less—
Her words caught
Between the tongues tip and the first edge of the invisible.

I hope so, myself now caught
Between the edge of the landscape and the absolute,
Which is the same place, and the same sound,
That she made.

Meanwhile, let's stick to business.
Everything else does, the landscape, the absolute, the invisible.
My job is yard work—
I take this inchworm, for instance, and move it from here to there.

Charles Wright, 1995

Wednesday, December 7, 2022

Don's Blog " 58 " 12-7-22



    Here is a poem from e.e.cumings book "95 Poems".

                     58

      a total stranger one black day
     knocked the living hell out of me—

     who found forgiveness hard because
     my (as it happened) self he was

     —but now that fiend and I are such
     immortal friends the other's each

     e.e.cummings    



Monday, December 5, 2022

Don's Blog 'Taking Stock' 12-5-22

Here is an editorial from St Louis Metropolitan Medicine from March 1984.



Friday, December 2, 2022

Don's Blog 'Absence Inside an Absence' 12-2-22

Here is a poem to make you pause from Charles Wright.

             Absence Inside an Absence

We live in the world of the voice,  
                                                    not in the world of the word,
According to John the solitary—
Our lives are language, our desires are apophatic,
The bush in flame is the bush in flame,
Imageless heart, imageless absence between the hearts.

And if we cry out,
                            if once we utter our natural sounds,
Even the angels will hide their heads
Under their blue wings,
                                     its also said.
So better forget that, better forget the darkness above the tongue,
Its shorting of words, its mad silence and lack of breath.

Besides there's another spin,
The flame and counter flame by which we come to stillness
Playing over our faces,
                                     over the rose cane and the missing rose,
Over the dreary schooners of snow
Pulling their nets in across the yard,
                                                 over their waters brought to joy.

Still, the idea of absence inside an absence
Completing a presence is dynamite,
                                                          the showings foretold
Unseeable through the earthly eye,
We say to ourselves,
The earth in our cracked hands,
                                        the earth dark syllables in our mouths.

Charles Wright -1995










Wednesday, November 30, 2022

Don's Blog "A Good Question" 11-30-22

Here is a St Louis Metropolitan Medicine Editorial from February 1984.


Tuesday, November 29, 2022

Don's Blog "Prairie" 11-29-22

This is a lengthy poem about the Heartland by Carl Sandburg. It sings to me directly.

Prairie

 I WAS born on the prairie and the milk of its wheat, the red of its clover, the eyes of 
its women, gave me a song and a slogan.
  Here the water went down, the icebergs slid with gravel, the gaps and the valleys hissed, 
and the black loam came, and the yellow sandy loam.
Here between the sheds of the Rocky Mountains and the Appalachians, here now a morning 
star fixes a fire sign over the timber claims and cow pastures, the corn belt, the cotton belt, 
the cattle ranches.
Here the gray geese go five hundred miles and back with a wind under their wings honking 
the cry for a new home.
Here I know I will hanker after nothing so much as one more sunrise or a sky moon of fire 
doubled to a river moon of water.
The prairie sings to me in the forenoon and I know in the night I rest easy in the 
prairie arms, on the prairie heart.
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After the sunburn of the day handling a pitchfork at a hayrack, after the eggs and biscuit and coffee, the pearl-gray haystacks in the gloaming are cool prayers to the harvest hands.
In the city among the walls the overland passenger train is choked and the pistons hiss 
and the wheels curse.
On the prairie the overland flits on phantom wheels and the sky and the soil between them 
muffle the pistons and cheer the wheels.
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I am here when the cities are gone.
I am here before the cities come.
I nourished the lonely men on horses.
I will keep the laughing men who ride iron.
I am dust of men.
The running water babbled to the deer, the cottontail, the gopher.
You came in wagons, making streets and schools, Kin of the ax and rifle, kin of the plow and horse, Singing Yankee Doodle, Old Dan Tucker, Turkey in the Straw, You in the coonskin cap at a log house door hearing a lone wolf howl, You at a sod house door reading the blizzards and chinooks let loose from Medicine Hat, I am dust of your dust, as I am brother and mother To the copper faces, the worker in flint and clay, The singing women and their sons a thousand years ago Marching single file the timber and the plain.
I hold the dust of these amid changing stars.
I last while old wars are fought, while peace broods mother-like, While new wars arise and the fresh killings of young men.
I fed the boys who went to France in great dark days.
Appomattox is a beautiful word to me and so is Valley Forge and the Marne and Verdun, I who have seen the red births and the red deaths Of sons and daughters, I take peace or war, I say nothing and wait.
Have you seen a red sunset drip over one of my cornfields, the shore of night stars, the 
wave lines of dawn up a wheat valley?  Have you heard my threshing crews yelling in the chaff of a strawpile and the running 
wheat of the wagonboards, my cornhuskers, my harvest hands hauling crops, singing dreams of women, worlds, horizons?.
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Rivers cut a path on flat lands.
The mountains stand up.
The salt oceans press in And push on the coast lines.
The sun, the wind, bring rain And I know what the rainbow writes across the east or west in a half-circle: A love-letter pledge to come again.
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Towns on the Soo Line, Towns on the Big Muddy, Laugh at each other for cubs And tease as children.
Omaha and Kansas City, Minneapolis and St.
Paul, sisters in a house together, throwing slang, growing up.
Towns in the Ozarks, Dakota wheat towns, Wichita, Peoria, Buffalo, sisters throwing slang, growing up.
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Out of prairie-brown grass crossed with a streamer of wigwam smoke—out of a smoke pillar, a blue promise—out of wild ducks woven in greens and purples— Here I saw a city rise and say to the peoples round world: Listen, I am strong, I know 
what I want.
Out of log houses and stumps—canoes stripped from tree-sides—flatboats coaxed with an ax 
from the timber claims—in the years when the red and the white men met—the houses and 
streets rose.
A thousand red men cried and went away to new places for corn and women: a million white 
men came and put up skyscrapers, threw out rails and wires, feelers to the salt sea: now 
the smokestacks bite the skyline with stub teeth.
In an early year the call of a wild duck woven in greens and purples: now the riveter's 
chatter, the police patrol, the song-whistle of the steamboat.
To a man across a thousand years I offer a handshake.
I say to him: Brother, make the story short, for the stretch of a thousand years is short.
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What brothers these in the dark? What eaves of skyscrapers against a smoke moon? These chimneys shaking on the lumber shanties When the coal boats plow by on the river— The hunched shoulders of the grain elevators— The flame sprockets of the sheet steel mills And the men in the rolling mills with their shirts off Playing their flesh arms against the twisting wrists of steel: what brothers these in the dark of a thousand years?.
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A headlight searches a snowstorm.
A funnel of white light shoots from over the pilot of the Pioneer Limited crossing 
Wisconsin.
In the morning hours, in the dawn, The sun puts out the stars of the sky And the headlight of the Limited train.
The fireman waves his hand to a country school teacher on a bobsled.
A boy, yellow hair, red scarf and mittens, on the bobsled, in his lunch box a pork chop 
sandwich and a V of gooseberry pie.
The horses fathom a snow to their knees.
Snow hats are on the rolling prairie hills.
The Mississippi bluffs wear snow hats.
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Keep your hogs on changing corn and mashes of grain, O farmerman.
Cram their insides till they waddle on short legs Under the drums of bellies, hams of fat.
Kill your hogs with a knife slit under the ear.
Hack them with cleavers.
Hang them with hooks in the hind legs.
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A wagonload of radishes on a summer morning.
Sprinkles of dew on the crimson-purple balls.
The farmer on the seat dangles the reins on the rumps of dapple-gray horses.
The farmer's daughter with a basket of eggs dreams of a new hat to wear to the county 
fair.
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On the left-and right-hand side of the road, Marching corn— I saw it knee high weeks ago—now it is head high—tassels of red silk creep at the ends of 
the ears.
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I am the prairie, mother of men, waiting.
They are mine, the threshing crews eating beefsteak, the farmboys driving steers to the 
railroad cattle pens.
They are mine, the crowds of people at a Fourth of July basket picnic, listening to a 
lawyer read the Declaration of Independence, watching the pinwheels and Roman candles at 
night, the young men and women two by two hunting the bypaths and kissing bridges.
They are mine, the horses looking over a fence in the frost of late October saying 
good-morning to the horses hauling wagons of rutabaga to market.
They are mine, the old zigzag rail fences, the new barb wire.
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The cornhuskers wear leather on their hands.
There is no let-up to the wind.
Blue bandannas are knotted at the ruddy chins.
Falltime and winter apples take on the smolder of the five-o'clock November sunset: 
falltime, leaves, bonfires, stubble, the old things go, and the earth is grizzled.
The land and the people hold memories, even among the anthills and the angleworms, among 
the toads and woodroaches—among gravestone writings rubbed out by the rain—they keep old 
things that never grow old.
The frost loosens corn husks.
The Sun, the rain, the wind loosen corn husks.
The men and women are helpers.
They are all cornhuskers together.
I see them late in the western evening in a smoke-red dust.
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The phantom of a yellow rooster flaunting a scarlet comb, on top of a dung pile crying 
hallelujah to the streaks of daylight,  The phantom of an old hunting dog nosing in the underbrush for muskrats, barking at a coon in a treetop at midnight, chewing a bone, chasing his tail round a corncrib,  The phantom of an old workhorse taking the steel point of a plow across a forty-acre field in spring, hitched to a harrow in summer, hitched to a wagon among cornshocks in fall,  These phantoms come into the talk and wonder of people on the front porch of a farmhouse 
late summer nights.
"The shapes that are gone are here," said an old man with a cob pipe in his teeth one 
night in Kansas with a hot wind on the alfalfa.
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Look at six eggs In a mockingbird's nest.
Listen to six mockingbirds Flinging follies of O-be-joyful Over the marshes and uplands.
Look at songs Hidden in eggs.
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When the morning sun is on the trumpet-vine blossoms, sing at the kitchen pans: Shout All 
Over God's Heaven.
When the rain slants on the potato hills and the sun plays a silver shaft on the last 
shower, sing to the bush at the backyard fence: Mighty Lak a Rose.
When the icy sleet pounds on the storm windows and the house lifts to a great breath, sing for the outside hills: The Ole Sheep Done Know the Road, the Young Lambs Must Find the Way.
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Spring slips back with a girl face calling always: "Any new songs for me? Any new songs?" O prairie girl, be lonely, singing, dreaming, waiting—your lover comes—your child comes—the years creep with toes of April rain on new-turned sod.
O prairie girl, whoever leaves you only crimson poppies to talk with, whoever puts a 
good-by kiss on your lips and never comes back—  There is a song deep as the falltime redhaws, long as the layer of black loam we go to, the shine of the morning star over the corn belt, the wave line of dawn up a wheat valley.
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O prairie mother, I am one of your boys.
I have loved the prairie as a man with a heart shot full of pain over love.
Here I know I will hanker after nothing so much as one more sunrise or a sky moon of fire 
doubled to a river moon of water.
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I speak of new cities and new people.
I tell you the past is a bucket of ashes.
I tell you yesterday is a wind gone down, a sun dropped in the west.
I tell you there is nothing in the world only an ocean of to-morrows, a sky of to-morrows.
I am a brother of the cornhuskers who say at sundown: To-morrow is a day.

Friday, November 25, 2022

Don's Blog "Breathless" 11-25-22

Here is one from Billy Collins to help put "Black Friday" sales to rest. Breathless

  Some like the mountains, some like the seashore
  Jean-Paul Belmondo says
  to the camera in the opening scene.

  Some like to sleep face up,
  Some like to sleep on their stomaches,
  I am thinking here in bed—

  some take the shape of murder victims
  flat on their backs all night,
  others float face down on the dark waters.

  Then there are those like me
  who prefer to sleep on their sides,
  knees brought up to the chest,

  head resting on a crooked arm
  and a soft fist touching the chin,
  which is the way i would like to be buried,

  curled up in a coffin
  in a fresh pair of cotton pajamas,
   a down pillow under my weighty head.

  After a lifetime of watchfulness
  and nervous vigilance,
  I will be more than ready for sleep,

  so never mind the dark suit
  and the ridiculous tie
  and the pale limp hands crossed on the chest.

  Lower me down in my slumber,
  tucked into myself
  like the oldest fetus on earth,

  and while cows look over the stone wall
  of the cemetery, let me rest here
  in my earthy little bedroom,

  my lashes glazed with ice,
  the roots of trees inching nearer,
  and no dreams to frighten me anymore.

  Billy Collins  2005
  
  
  

  

Wednesday, November 23, 2022

Don's Blog Contact 11-23-22

All the flowers have passed as has my birthday. I'll be offering poems of interest and continue with my previous editorials. Here is an editorial from St Louis Metropolitan Medicine in January 1984. To enlarge put curser on printout and hit return:

You can comment at donsessions@aol.com

Thursday, November 10, 2022

A Cherry Fun Day 11-10-22


Today with almost no leaves left still in place we are having two tall dead cherry trees removed.
Our tree guy uses a lift to get in place safely. He had to cut a few branches off neighboring trees to get where he needed to be.

 


 

The cherry trees have not leafed out for several years so it is time to take them down. He can sure get high.

 


After cutting the trees down he brought in a chipper and removed all the dead wood as chips. Our sister Peg has been using him and he is as good as advertised. We left one trunk about 8 feet high so Jan can still use her hammock.

Sunday, November 6, 2022

Don's Blog A Walk in the Woods II 11-6-22





As you can see the stream is silent and clear.The leaves are off the trees.

  Do you know what this is?

 

 


Yes, an Osage Orange. We had a tree in our back yard on Breezeridge. They are hard as a rock. We used to throw them at each other but our aim was never very good

 

 

 
 
 


 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Don's Blog A Walk in the Woods 1 11-6-22

Its a quiet warm November day in Warren County. I parked near the stables and walked by a stream in the woods. The lighting is spectacular.
Nothing like the quiet of the woods.

Saturday, November 5, 2022

A Walk in the Neighborhood 11-5-22

 

It was a blustery day at the lake. This afternoon it warmed up a bit so I took a brief walk. Here is my new American flag.

 


 Down the street is a fabulous horse. It never seems to get anywhere.

 


 

Back at the entry to the driveway I spotted a young deer. He is under the bird feeder.



As I approached his younger sister showed up.




They create quite a portrait.



Tuesday, November 1, 2022

Flower for the Day More Flowers 11-1-22

 

Well here is a new flower for late fall and winter.


And this pretty one

which turns into some real fun in the wind.

 






 

Monday, October 31, 2022

Final Flower for the Day Black-Eyed Susan 10-31-22

 Well its Halloween and in the heartland the black eyed susan is still thriving through the frosts.

 

And in several places.



 

Friday, October 28, 2022

Flower for the Day Winding Down 10-28-22

 

Fall is here with cool crisp days and intermittent light frosty nights. We had a day and a half of rain
and all that grows is winding down. Here are some of the hardier flowers - the best of the last.

Indian Blanket Flower
Celosia

Cosmos

 

and one of the few dahlias that bloomed.



 

Monday, October 17, 2022

Flower for the Day Dahlias, Finally 10-17-22

After a very long wait the Dahlias have started blooming. Another later season aster
the dahlias have arrived in time for the early frost.


And here is a Wendell Berry poem from Katie.

Thursday, October 13, 2022

Flower for the Day Its a Yellow Day 10-13-22

 

Its a Red Flag Day here- dry with ferocious winds but the flowers for the day are yellow. here is one of several stands of marigolds (Tagetes)   which are surprising because they were planted last year and wintered over. They were named by Carl Linnaeus in 1753.



They have sturdy little blooms.



And right on time for the season are some beautiful yellow chrysanthemums. Because of their intense hybridization I am unable to have them successful winter over. On the other hand they are very available. Like the marigolds they are in the aster family.



Like the marigolds they are in the aster family. And Linnaeus named them the same year as the marigold.

 

They fit well anywhere.

 



Wednesday, October 12, 2022

Mushrooms 10-12-22

As the flowers wind down the mushrooms seem to be more noticeable. This beautiful red mushroom is in the Polyporaceae Family.

This tan water catcher is in the Russulaceae Family.



And this grouping of small mushrooms is in the Physalacriaceae family.




   MUSHROOMS
Overnight, very
Whitely, discreetly,
Very quietly

Our toes, our noses
Take hold on the loam,
Acquire the air.

Nobody sees us,
Stops us, betrays us;
The small grains make room.

Soft fists insist on
Heaving the needles,
The leafy bedding,

Even the paving.
Our hammers, our rams,
Earless and eyeless,

Perfectly voiceless,
Widen the crannies,
Shoulder through holes. We

Diet on water,
On crumbs of shadow,
Bland-mannered, asking

Little or nothing.
So many of us!
So many of us!

We are shelves, we are
Tables, we are meek,
We are edible,

Nudgers and shovers
In spite of ourselves.
Our kind multiplies:

We shall by morning
Inherit the earth.
Our foot's in the door.

Sylvia Plath


 

Tuesday, October 11, 2022

Don's Blog Fall Trail Walking - 10-10-22

 The weather has been perfect for trail walking as the leaves snow down on us.


And for the perfect quiet spot with the sun low in the sky there is even a purple chair.



Friday, October 7, 2022

Sedum 10-7-22


This sedum (Saxifrageles) is commonly known as stonecrop. It is a succulent that has
been here since Jan planted it in the early 70’s. 
Up close it has amazing little stars

What do the explorers, 
the wayfarers, pilgrims we'd thought had long since disappeared, 
the Berbers, the nomadic herders 
and the exiled 
say to people like us whose law is of the letter and testament 
not of the unknown necessity 
which moment by moment 
is revealed 

Beyond us, where they live, there's a ghost language 
which accommodates what no language 
can say: 
the photons generated by the stars' clashing 
how the antelope wends its way through the orthography 
the yellow that returns to the rugged slopes 
after the heavy snows 

Translation: 2006, Richard Zenith